Being a Mommy

The things you learn as a parent.

I am nine months into parenthood and I have learned more than I ever thought I would. The love you can have for your child is just remarkable.I think if people wait too long or decide not to have a child, they are just selfish. If they only knew how amazing it is to have a kid they wouldn't have made the choice they did. Preston and I always thing about how life was before Logan and we cant think of what we were doing or how things were because our life is just filled now with so much love and entertainment. 

Letting your baby learn to self soothe. Its been the worst thing ever for me. I hate to hear Logan cry. I think its the motherly instinct. But I don't like this process. The Pediatrician told me to let him cry and learn to self soothe and fall back asleep. I did put him down last night and he cried for about 35 mins before he fell asleep. Then I didn't hear him wake up during the night. I don't know if it was because I turned down the baby monitor or if it was because he just didn't get up. But at 6:15 he was awake and crying and hungry. We usually get up at 7, but I knew he didn't eat a lot before bed so I knew he was hungry. I got up and got him and I could tell that he was so happy to see me that he held me tight and kept holding me during the morning, just to make sure I wouldn't leave his side. He cried when i would put him down to change his clothes because he thought I was putting him down for bed. I think it was a little scary for him, but I think he will learn over time that it is ok.

Sick kids aren't any fun. As a parent you are so helpless, especially with infants who cant talk and tell you whats wrong. Logan has had 2 different colds within 3 weeks of each other. He is at the tail end of the cold and I hope he doesn't get another any time soon. 

I could go on forever and I wish I had some sort of device to write my thoughts when I think them because I always think stuff i would love to write down in the most random places.

We bought a house!

Month 6 and 7

Happy Halloween

Monthly Pics Week 1- Month 5

Newborn Photos

The Birth of my Baby Boy!

 I went into Dr. Evenson's Office for my weekly appointment on May 8th. I was 39 weeks and set on letting her know that I was DONE! I didn't want to wait any longer. My PUPPS rash had gotten worse and my right leg was so swollen that It was mega painful. I felt like I couldn't walk anymore and was just hating life. I told her I wanted to be induced. She told me that my baby felt like 8.5 lbs so she felt comfortable inducing me. She just had to get approval from the high risk doctors. So she left and about 20 mins later the nurse came in my room and said ok go down into labor and delivery and go have a baby. We were shocked. My mom and Preston was with me. I was admitted at 5:30 pm and Dr. Evenson broke my water then said ok I'm going to run to Provo really quick you cant have this baby in the next 3 hrs. We just laughed and they started my Pitocen. Right away I started feeling bad contractions. When they broke my water I had Preston run home to grab all the stuff we needed at the hospital. I waited about 25 mins before I requested an epidural. The anesthesiologist came about 40 mins later and started my epidural. My labor was long, but not as long as most. I pushed for 2 hours and then it took an additional hour to get his head and shoulders out. The last hour they noticed that I had spiked a fever of over 100. They were concerned that I was loosing too much blood.

 Once Logan came out he was born at 4:34am on May 9,2013. I had ripped 3 different ways and lost so much blood. The Dr couldn't figure out where the bleeding was coming from and they started testing for internal bleeding. Logan was placed on my chest after he was cleaned a bit but I was as white as a ghost and starting to vomit. So they quickly had Preston cut the cord and took Logan to the nursery to feed. He measured 9 lbs and 11 oz. 22 inches long. after a few hours I was stable and they brought Logan back to me. I had lost so much blood during labor that they had to give me 2 units of packed blood cells. So all day the second day i had a transfusion. It was quite over whelming especially because Logan couldn't nurse since I was having my transfusion and he had low blood sugar, causing the nurses to give him a blood test on his foot every 3 hours. I finally got on my feet and was able to stand and shower that Saturday. Then they discharged me that afternoon. We got a call on Sunday, Mother's Day that Logan had high levels of billirubin and he needed to be on a UV Light 24/7 because of Jaundice. Both Preston and I were traumatized when they brought in a UV bed that Logan had to lay in and couldn't leave until his levels were normal. I cried for a good hour after he was put in it because he just cried and cried and couldn't be held. After 2 and a half days of being on the light he was a low enough level that he would be ok to be off of it. 

   Logan is now 6 weeks old and over 10 Lbs. He is the light of my life and learning to smile. He has great personality and changing every day. He is almost sleeping 5 hours each night and loves bath time. Parenthood is an adjustment but its well worth every second!